Might as well laugh about it...

...yep, we just moved here within the last 6 months, and now we're facing moving again. You can read about that crazy rollercoaster 30 day journey here titled "Day 1: If you don't move...God will move you." So the story this time goes like this; when we found this house for rent, it actually was listed for sale/or rent. The rent was cheap $600 a month compared to what we had been paying along with being a bigger house (5 bed/2 bath), and it had a big shop/garage (enough for 4 cars). It really ended up having all these minor things as well that we loved. We told the landlord we'd be willing to look at purchasing it in the future, but for now we needed to rent. We signed a 6 month lease with the thoughts of a contract for deed to be signed afterwards. Also, the neighborhood was full of kids always outside; which was something our Koda had never experienced and needed.

Well it even got better than that, the landlords came to us with the contract info I had requested, so we could know ahead of time the amount down and details within. We were in tears after that meeting, they had removed the realtor from the property/contract. They decided we wouldn't put anything down, and they would carry the mortgage in its' entirety. They had already picked the percentage of interest and attached an amortization that included only increasing our rent by $2 a month, and paying it off in 9.5 years. They are not expecting us to find a lender within a certain amount of time like most contract for deeds can include. Our mouths dropped to the floor...did yours? This is exactly how God works in our life over and over! But not only that, they are fixing everything that "needs" to be fixed like a roof issue (no leaks, just shingles), the sidewalk needs to be completely pulled out and redone, the porch roof needs replaced, and replace all the old water piping to pvc. This is all written out in the contract. We just knew this was our confirmation it was now time to settle, make our home, and find the security in that we had long been awaiting.

Since then, we've had to file bankruptcy. We have incurred the debt, so we will be paying $1000 a month for the next 5 years for that, but in all truth; I don't feel guilty about that anymore just sad we had to. I use to feel like "bankruptcy" was such a "bad" word. It still doesn't feel good to write it down either. Bankruptcy doesn't declare who we are or change the significance of our lives like some may judge or think. On top of that we've had the newest journey of our son's tumor eating through his skull (read here)..., and we're thanking God that it has not went malignant. Again, like I posted in the results of the PET scan; our journey is really just beginning with all that...we've got a road ahead of us that looks very crooked and honestly many parts of it we don't see. We really do trust God with all of it. So this next week...we start making the trips to surgeons, specialists, etc.

So when we filed bankruptcy we were upfront about wanting to buy this house. The attorney himself didn't see a problem but told us to make sure to submit the documentation/contract for court trustee approval. Again when we went to the meeting of creditors, we met up with another attorney from the office to face the trustee; at this time, we brought up again the contract and desire to buy this house. She (attorney) said, don't worry about it now...submit it after the final hearing in Nov...so I held on to it. I submitted it as requested via email about a week and a half ago.

Late yesterday afternoon, I got the most disheartening email from a paralegal. The email stated our paralegal was no longer with the company. If we had any questions or concerns we could email the general email address. She also included that if we wanted to ask for approval we would have to submit a motion to borrow. The fee for this is $450.00 and must be paid upfront to file. Then continues to say that if we would like to discuss any of this with our attorney, at the time of scheduling an appt. there would be a $125 fee to do so. Grrrrr!! Never in any of the previous convo's was there fees mentioned.

The landlord is expecting us to sign the contract on Jan 1st. 6 weeks away...and I get this email. We're very concerned at this point and questioning a lot of things at the moment. Are we not where we're suppose to be? Is there something going to happen with Koda that will make us need to be elsewhere? Why did this work out so nicely up until now? We just moved, really? I unpacked everything! ????? I also asked God, what instead of why? The landlord has already been so generous and actually way over what I could have imagined happening for us; so they want an approval from the trustee as well for us to sign. Makes sense...they've got to protect they're investment.

So my question is do we pack up now before (we've moved in much quicker time than 6 weeks before) all this gets going with Koda or do we wait it out? I've put in a call to the landlord so they'll know what's up. We don't expect them to do anymore than they've already done, and they need to sell their house. So with great concern I wonder tonight...what the next 6 weeks is going to entail. Let me be very honest here...I fully trust God to take care of us and know He will. I am concerned of the overwhelming journey we might have to face. Packing, surgery, looking for another house, deposits, moving, chemo, Koda's well being after being told we can't stay if that happens...yes all IF's...but I'm human and I think a lot.

I have to say that after posting a blurb of this on FB, I'm frustrated with comments. People really don't know what they're saying...good thing I know they mean well; but it definitely is a thorn in my side. Just like when someone loses a loved one...please, stop saying heaven needed another angel, God has a plan, a purpose, etc. For me personally, I know He does...but saying that is very discounting to someone's true raw emotions in the moment; it is NOT helpful. In those moments, I'm thinking I know this...my head knows this, my heart knows it as well. I'm sitting here with a kid that has part of his skull missing, a tumor that has not been able to be touched/removed because it's so risky; he might die if it was attempted. We live on scarcity in the natural realm of things because my husband (bless his hard working ever so dedicated heart) is the only consistent provider for our family...so I can be available for this ever changing condition of our child. Don't question my faith or ask me to remember...I KNOW! I don't like this journey at all though I know we'll see the blessing of it; we already have: our son's character, personality, life, and faith.

So, $450 isn't much really but it's a whole lot to us; more than we have right now in this moment or could even think of getting (our son's appts, traveling, lodging, boarding of dogs, eating etc at this time are where our finances are going along with paying the bills)...this isn't a call for help; this is a blog of real raw emotions. This isn't a manipulation to get help either; see...God does over and beyond what I can imagine every single time...so I'm waiting on Him to direct us. He will! I'm just concerned that His way for us isn't our way right now. This might not be were we thought was home, and with everything going on...I might as well laugh! He probably has heavenly laughing fits just watching me have my fits.

Sidenote: For me (because my husband can't get OT pay or work OT...he works enough) to make enough $$ to help pay this $450 fee...I need to sell some more products. If you haven't already been a part of my Facebook page then like/follow @rentschlerswildtree or shop my website. Ask me about workshop bundles to fill your freezer! This is a win win...you get simple, healthy, natural groceries you'd already be buying and be helping us out too. 

Thank you for reading, thank you for allowing me to live in my raw, disgusted, frustrated, sad, mad, and sick sense of humor about it all...embrace joy in your life because if you can't do anything about it; then might as well...laugh. "Proverbs 31:25...She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come."

Day 25-29:God will move you...Sweet Serenity and Jehovah-jirah

If you go back and read day 1, you almost wouldn't believe the words in which I'm about to write. That is unless you have faith in God: Jehovah-jirah (The Lord who Provides) that delivers every single time and usually over and beyond what one can imagine. And so it is...here I am giving God the glory for all that He has abundantly blessed us with over the last 29 days. He did it just like I said. He had a plan and we walked it out in full trust of His purpose. Now we're all benefitting from the move.

Here's some detailed benefits in which only mean something to me/us that has happened. I've mentioned some of these before in past posts, but I thought to see them all listed out might give a visual to all that God has done that was "not" in the necessities list of the new place...these are now truly luxuries!

1. I've been wanting a tub for so long that was truly big enough to "soak" in, not one where my knees or other body parts had to be out of the water. I got that along with jets!!

2. We've been needing a second bathroom for some time; as our son and I had the same "internal clock". No matter what I did; every single day...we had to go at the same time. We've got that extra toilet now.

3. Just for the safety, I wanted a basement but not as much as our son. He wanted to make sure we were safe from tornados since we do live in Kansas...he didn't want to go to Oz. I'd been fine with some ruby slippers, traveling especially in a hot air balloon, and to find friends while walking along the yellow brick road. Ohh and I find some excitement in the thought of running from flying monkeys...but that all didn't happen; God seen fit to give us a basement. A basement with storage shelves, a gutted basement so that we could either put the 3 bedrooms back in place or make it our own.

4. Our financial situation was looking really grim with the payments we were making before since I wasn't working. He supplied a bigger home for cheaper rent...$250 a month cheaper. We asked for time to figure out if this is really where we want to be since this house is for sale. I didn't want to be kicked out if it sold, so they put the house on pending and gave us a 6 month lease. Now the thought of possibly moving again in 6 months makes me sick! I have a "feeling" we're here for good. We have the option to buy/rent to own on January 1st. Since I've been in realty, escrow/title, closing business most of my career...I'm comfortable doing a owner finance until we can borrow for ourselves; we know what we need to do.

5. Everywhere else we've rented has always had white/off white walls and no painting allowed. Here, every room is a different color...and guess what? Our decor matches perfectly...imagine that. Would I have picked these colors? Probably not, but it will work for now and anything is better than white! I even have a butterfly wall decoration that never went with anything else, but my husband bought it for me and I wasn't getting rid of it. It looks beautifully in the bathroom next to the jet tub...in which, the decor says "believe". :) The littlest things make me smile, and proves God cares about the finest of details.

6. The back yard is complete with a privacy fence. Here's the little details...the yard is split with a fort already in place for our kiddo. The split gives us a place to separate the dog from visitors if needed or kids for that matter. Hallelujah! Along with that...out in the corner of the yard is a triangular wood patio...big enough for our table and chairs, the zero gravity chair, and the BBQ grill.

7. The master closet at first look was a real turnoff to me but wow...I've fit so much in there because of the masterminds whom designed it. Shelving and hooks all around have made this one happy lady.

8. I've always loved to be in the kitchen, but have found that love diminish over the years because of having such small kitchens. Not small to a lot of people, but after having bigger ones in the past; I've been spoiled in that way; spoiled again now. I've baked three loaves of different bread this week. Just waiting on payday to get more ingredients, so I can fill the house with the baking aromas. This kitchen has so many cabinets...that everything has it's spot! Glorious!! We have a built in china cabinet and coffee bar cabinet....ohhh Heaven on Earth! I don't need all those what-knot shelves anymore or a makeshift pantry out of an old bookcase (I'll be selling those if we end up buying).

9. The kid has friends. Now I will say that since most of the neighborhood is girls that limits his play with the boys, but we have one that shows up at our door everyday; and would live here if we let him. Except when he wants to go home to play video games...we don't do that here, but we have Netflix and he thinks that is pretty awesome. Now the trampoline is up, the fort out back, and bikes...I try to get them outside as much as possible. This is one of the most beautiful things and the most delightful out of all the list. We as parents couldn't be more thrilled.

Since we have moved here, the kiddo has lost all services that were available to us in Sedgwick County. He can't go back to summer camp, and we don't get weekend day respite. Now that would have been horrifying...but it's not now because he is getting to play with the neighborhood kids. He hasn't even asked to go to camp. I've not felt the need for respite. I will be getting hooked into direct services soon so that dad and I can have a date night tho. That's one of the most important things I've ever discovered in the years of marriage; time to ourselves.

10. My awesome spouse has his man cave. He is ecstatic about the basement because all my "gotta save it" stuff doesn't have to take up his territory. He is having a blast with organizing, planning, dreaming, and storing his toys. Not just a garage but a shop...4 cars would fit comfortably in there. Now that he changed positions...all those work tools came home; uhm...he has a shirt that says that he owns tools worth more than your new car (that's the truth). We couldn't be happier as this is the exact size we would've built if we didn't already have it now.

11. We are on in a cul-de-sac...low traffic and the kids are safe to play out in the street without too much worry.

12. We can walk to the end of the street, and be at the mini-lake or big pond if you want to call it that; there's some nice fish in there. It didn't take long for the boys to try that out. We are only 12 miles from the actual lake...uhm, a hop, skip and jump compared to what we've done before to go to the lake. This in itself is something that we wanted for retirement was to be by the lake...hummm? Are we at our retirement house? Ohhh wouldn't that be a blessing...never to move again!

13. The kiddo will be in elementary another year here (so many other places move on to a intermediate school in-between elementary and middle school. I find this to be another blessing only because as we all know that the best of friends are made in elementary, and it's easier to transition to another building/school if you have went to school with kids in the past. He's excited because another year of recesses. That's important!

14. I have a built in book shelf that holds all my books! That'll be some more shelving to be sold.

15. I have an enclosed back porch with french doors. The windows in the french doors have those internal blinds...no dusting...that is supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! It makes for a nice place to have the deep freeze, etc. We have other ideas for it if we buy it though.

None of this is bragging because this house needs so much work to make it complete, but what we've got here is God showing us that he cares about our interest down to the minor details. I know that listing all that is wrong with it wouldn't bring benefit to anyone anyway...it's finding the good in it all. It's seeing our glass is not only half full but truly overflowing. We have been showered upon!

This...I've always been a "goer" and get depressed really easy if I can't get out of the house. It's a feeling of "stuck" that I can't stand. Being down to one vehicle...I've been in this house without leaving for a week now; I'm doing fabulous. I have so much fun just "keeping house", relaxing in my yard, daydreaming of all I want to do, and watching the kids play. I don't know if I'll stay this content,  almost assured that's not possible, but for now; sweet serenity is what I'm in. Thank you God for your provisions beyond anything I could've dreamed up myself. I dream pretty big!

Ohhh and don't let me forget...hubby was given a car today; we'll pick it up on Sunday. A car...that will be used to save on gas for hubby to go to work. It frees up the other vehicle so the kid and myself can go if wanted/needed. See...the 30 days isn't over and He has provided EVERYTHING and beyond!!

So if you've ever wanted to have such provisions or have questioned believing in God, Jesus, or anything...let this give you some hope to "try" Him out; He will let you. He gives us free will to make that decision because He loves us that much. If you have any questions about such faith; please feel free to email me, comment, pm on Facebook, whatever. I'm here for you and to share my faith for those who are interested. No I am far from a religious person; I don't belong to any denominations, etc.

Day 20-24: God will move you...(ohhh so well)

I'm going to bed tonight feeling so blessed. I'm well in Wellington and so happy to have been yanked out of Valley (center). I looked up the definition to well and valley...and as you can see below everything seems so positive with well and negative with valley; as it was with me emotionally, spiritually, physically,

1.Well...in a good or satisfactory way. in good health; free or recovered from illness. a pool fed by a spring. intimately; closely.
2. Valley...a low point or condition. an elongated depression between uplands.

I'm assured we were yanked out of Valley to flourish and thrive in the abundance of a intimate/close relationship with our Creator. His refreshing spring of wisdom, love, and faithfulness brought me out of the 3 year despair and loneliness cure for our son. I knew that wasn't where we were supposed to stay, but we were there for a purpose; and God knew it was time for change. I admit like in the earlier posts that we had been looking to move, but I was so fearful of change for our kiddo that it pretty much came to a halt. We were just looking in the wrong places at the time. We dreamed of all that we have now minus the acreage that I've said several times before...and it's not like we would utilize the acreage right now; you have to have the big boy toys in possession to tear up the land. ;)

Whew...about to get all caught with this one. I've been able to let the days go by without a blog post only because it's been peaceful, fulfilling, and well let's just say down right enjoying.

Nothing bigreally has went on except some of the water issues we were having has been taken care of except for the water pressure. LL is sending out a company this next week to look at the concrete work, basement windows, siding/facia that the storm decided to rip off, and the grade of the dirt around the house which is causing some leaking issues.

Koda has been playing like crazy everyday. We have an open door policy whether we like it or not; lil' neighbor boy comes in whenever he feels...I'll be having some boundaries classes and visual schedules set up soon. :) Had 1/2 the neighborhood kids over for popcorn and weekly shows I must watch like America's Got Talent and Battlebots.

Just getting settled in as the last of the boxes are being emptied, we joined in on the town festival #kansaswheatfestival to watch the parade. Our son came out with two KU shirts and cap...now that's a winner. Didn't really join in on the rest of the excitement just because the kiddo just doesn't do so well with all the loud noise, smells, and chaos...and this night just he just wasn't with his A game. Hubby got the trampoline and lighting in the shop up, and I got flowers hung along with the hummingbird feeders...making this house a home.

I will say I heard from one of my bestie's that she was in danger/trouble. After hearing her story it made me sick and concerned. I prayed but my husband wanted to do even more...go get her out of the possible additional circumstances that could arise from the situation she was in. She is two states away, and that blessed her heart and mine for him to be "ready to go" in a moment's call. How many friends really does one have that would do that? I will be honest and say I even questioned my friend list on that. No, not everyone can/could; but the ones whom are able...would they? She didn't make that call and to be honest; I'm glad it didn't come to that for her sake. She is away from her physical address, so it's a bit more nerve-wracking for everyone involved.

The hubby just left for his first shift as a driver...and I would appreciate prayers for him as he didn't sleep well today. I'm hoping these first 10 days of training go smoothly, are enjoyable, and that he doesn't get too bored especially if he doesn't get to "drive".

It's nice to have a blog post of "nothing" after all these weeks of "OMPancakes".  We're settling into His plans ever so nicely. I'm so thankful He knows better than I, and that He yanks when we don't move when we're supposed to on our own. He's got it so perfected down to the curtains that I already had but never used...color fitting. The minor details to all of you are the most impactful ones to me. I can't believe how things are matching up from the decor, the landscaping, the distance to our most needed stores, cul-de-sac so the kiddo can safely play/ride his bike, etc. We find blessings everyday since we moved. Thank you so much for staying with me on my crazy journey. I look down to see what time it is...and there it is...He knows the plans He has for you. Just like us, you may not see it at all at first. It all looks like a disaster. I hope that through our last 30 day journey someone will gain hope in a God that is good, cares, loves, and will put you right where you need to be.

~Blessings!

P.S....forgive the typos, grammar, etc...my eyes are going crossed. Good night! :)

Day 19: God will move you...(the adult monkey has lost his mind)

This particular post right here has taken me way to long to complete...and I'm not so sure it's going to get done. I'm starting from scratch because as I've tried to write for the last 24 hours...the previous draft post deleted itself twice, the font wouldn't sync up throughout, the pics wouldn't center, the links wouldn't work, the whole thing just made me slam the lid down this morning and walk away...so I'm here again trying to complete it. I'm thinking that I was trying to post two days worth of stuff into one post and I'm not supposed to do that; at least, not this one.

As if the craziness of all that has happened in the last 19 days wasn't enough...My only adult, responsible, mature monkey of the home (because I quit adulting a long time ago #adultingisoverrated) decides to come home and tell me; he changed jobs. What!?! Ok, do you all remember the financial struggle that I've been posting about? I don't think he reads these blogs after all...he just comments to support me because he's great at that. Anyway...yes, he starts a new job on Monday. Now let me clear this part up; he's staying with the same company (whew!). But here's the crazy...

It's incentive paid. Just typing those last three words made me stop push my glasses up and rub my eyes and take a very deep breath. This means that not only do we not ever get back the possibility of OT which is no longer coming in...his pay could be cut completely in half!

Listen, this man has been an excellent provider and always looking out for the best interest of our family. He has continued to the top of most pay scales out there for his profession. He makes over and beyond what he ever thought he could. He holds at a very high level the accomplishment for himself especially after the childhood he endured, the choices he made when dropping out of school, and the things told to him by the adults in his life. To many we are rich and to many more we are poor. It's all in perspective, attitude, and priorities. Again the reason I cover the financial part of our lives in these blogs (I'd rather not because it really can be embarrassing, humbling, and down right doesn't feel good) is because there's somebody reading that needs to feel known. Now with the bragging done...let me tell you about FEAR/SCARED TO DEATH "feelings" that I have. I trust him but I trust in God even more, so guess what he'll have 10 days of training and then goes out on his own as a driver then it'll be at least 14 more days before we know what that paycheck is gonna look like. Holding my breath, I'd be lying if I didn't admit this fear.

Really, right now we have to throw this into the loop of circus events??? Would you wanna kill him? Is this even ok? Yes, because if he didn't; he would've walked out of his position all together (We CANNOT have that)....and rightfully so. I won't go into the details of what's going on there at work because well it benefits no one and something I might say publicly could be taken wrong... I wouldn't want to jeopardize his employment. This company has been awesome to work for all the way around; it's just that the management that brought him in from KC is now gone. Now...here's the positive news:

He could make even more than he's making now with all the OT he was putting in. He has no idea what he will be able to obtain from the beginning...it's a wait and see. I know him, and he's going to strive to bring the "best" home. Whatever happens we'll be just fine because if God brought us to it; He'll bring us through it, over it, under it...done! Can't wait to post about this favor, grace, mercy, and down right miracle. Remember the pay could be cut in half. Until then...please pray for me, lol seriously. My thoughts can tend to run as wild as my adult monkey did with his decisions. I feel like we're bringing in the turtles to do the lion acts...it's gonna take a miracle. Who's gonna hang on with me and keep me in prayer about this for the next month?

Watch those turtles roar!

~Blessings!

Day 14- God will move you (unexpected provision)

Day 14 was a productive one. As soon as the hubby got home from work first thing (he works third shift) we got the kiddo off to camp then headed to get the utilities turned on in our name. The quickest route comes will a toll, so we decided to sign up for a KTag which will be beneficial to go into Oklahoma and also to Kansas City. After we got done with that we headed over to the new house because first we needed to confirm the keys worked but also I needed to refresh my memory of what it looked like. To be honest, when we viewed it the first time, I didn't see everything I wanted to nor took it in like I should have. I'm so excited now because its (house and yard) bigger than I thought.

My heart got a tad filled just because I saw kid's bikes at our neighbor's houses on both sides. Koda might actually have kids to play with and who knows; establish his first "best" friend. Wouldn't that be amazing? I have high hopes and am praying already that the parents along with the children are accepting and friendly. Here I am at 3am blogging on the morning of the 15th day only because I got into a packing mood when hubby left for work. I don't want to be cramming to get stuff done at the last minute so I focused on the kitchen. It's all packed up, refrigerator cleaned, etc. Got the kiddo's room all done right before bed, so all that is really left is the bathroom, last minute stuff and living room which has the big stuff in it.

Can't wait until morning though...we find out if we get our Ozzy (dog) back. It's been such an emotional week just in that topic alone. Emotions are a rollercoaster ride so many times and today wasn't left out. We were blessed by a dear friends today whom wired us money just because they felt led to. They had no idea the financial place we were in or at least not the extent of it. I so cried! I cried because it melts me when God shows off through His creation like that; not just with money but provision and unexpected at that.

If we are allowed to have Ozzy back, it will cost $200 to get him out. With all the moving expenses, this fee was just more than we had to pay...we were looking poorly for groceries and gas until the next payday as is, so by the tender grace and mercy of God, we are assuming we will get him back because the finances became available to do so. Yes, I'm claiming that as the final word...we'll see yet again. Stay tuned...

~Blessings
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Day 13...God will move you! (The best chaotic story yet)

Here we are at day 13...and we have a home! We signed the lease with the option to buy in 6 months today and will be moving to Wellington, KS this Friday.  God provided and let me tell you all about it.

First off let me tell you this house that we're leaving has meant a lot with symbols that only relate to our personal story, but one thing was our house # here was 555 which is our son's birthday #'s. The new house is 1306 which is my birthday numbers...and here we are on the 13th day. Just some cool stuff that means nothing else but are little coincidences that make us smile. We definitely know we were supposed to be here at least up until now if for nothing more than all that our son received in services, etc.

We got the official notice to vacate in the mail today stating that July's rent was still expected though on the phone last week, the landlord called to tell me if we moved out early they would gladly prorate/refund the rent that we didn't use. HA! I'm sorry, but we've planned to be out of here on July 1st from the beginning because we didn't have the funds to pay rent here, pay deposit for the new plus rent. In reality we didn't have the first month's rent even when we signed the lease today, but they are letting us move in anyway and waiting until the next pay period for that. How awesome is that!! Also please know that this new house is up for sale, so they are putting it on a pending status with the realtor for the 6 months until we confirm whether we want it or not. How nice!! God's mercy is fabulous! No showings while we rent, and no possibility of us being kicked out again. To be honest she had a cash buyer offer to buy it yesterday, but since she already told us we could sign the lease today; she refused to sell it due to our circumstances. Amazing...I don't know that I would've done that in her situation.

Taken from Facebook and want to give credit but can't find the page again, sorry!

One hour after signing the new lease...seriously I get a call from the current landlord asking if we'd like to go ahead and stay! What the hell?! Seriously?!? Yes, they're willing to move into the other property they offered us because they got a special transportation allowance to keep their kids in the district while they build their new house. I'm sorry but I've never felt boiling in my body like I did at that minute. See they offered us to move into their other rental property for $150 more a month (see that story here, its a whopper too) when they told us we had to move 13 days ago. No! We declined because we can't afford to pay that much for rent, and it would move us out of the school district so we decided to look elsewhere. God, what are you doing? Did we jump ahead too soon not trusting you? Did we do exactly what we were supposed to? I asked all these questions, and honestly I'm still asking.

The hubby had to remind me why we're not staying...they wouldn't fix what needed to be done. For example the bathroom linoleum started cracking from the 2 leaks that happened. They fixed the leak but never fixed the floor. When we needed a new toilet, they put in a new toilet right over the cracked floor. I tried to hide and protect it as much as possible with a rug, but really; why would someone allow that? It's not going to repair itself and it's sure not going to keep from getting worse. I wouldn't doubt it now that there is mold in the walls of the bathroom as they never pulled the walls back to fix the leaks, but did something from the outside where the faucet hooks in. There were leaks in the hallway from the drainage and they just wanted us to dry the carpet, never pulling it up to replace or clean it. Ugh! Ok, I remember now. Now I'll give them credit otherwise as they never bothered us.

Here's the other provisions:
1. New house comes with 5 bedrooms/2 bath (no more sharing w/ the kid), huge shop/garage (hubby gets his man cave), we backed up to a small lake (ohh heck yeah, FISHING), it has a basement (the kid no longer scared of dangerous weather), it has a reverse osmosis system (yay for everyone!), and it's $250 cheaper a month...HALLELUJAH!! Now mind you I'm not trying to make this house glamorous because it's not; it's a fixer upper but nothing we can't live in while deciding if we'll buy. We would no where close to be being homeowners if we stayed at the current location. It's a beautiful thought.

 I'm just going to laugh now at my future...it's all in His hands as it's always been!! So day 13 God has provided and it's not over yet...I'm going out the entire 30 because I believe there is more to reveal. We're embracing joy as we take these steps into our unknown future/path.

~ Blessings!

Simply LOLA

Day 8-12...God will move you

...and He'll make sure you don't accidentally go somewhere you're not supposed to either after this week of seeking homes. What a mess! We called on 6 different homes, left messages, and to receive  notta, nothing, no calls back on any of those. We went to look at another; NOPE...I wouldn't suggest a terrorist even live there. Ewww! Had another I really liked and well...after emailing and talking on the phone, I was to get an email with the website for an application to fill out and the lock code to go in for viewing. Nope, notta, nothing returned with any such info on that either. Guess you can say...those weren't the right ones. So we're back to the first one we looked at and applied for...more tomorrow on that. (All of this happened from day 8-11)

So back to Day 8: Zoey, our dog they took (That story is here) and we aren't getting back failed her assessments, so she was put down. Day 8 was devastating to me, so pretty much nothing got done except lots of kleenex, cold washrags, and tears; that's enough about that.

From that moment on it's been like being in the passing lane at full speed as we're trying to find a gas station because we're about out of gas.

Day 9: Productivity started back up for the monkeys in my circus. Pay Day! Direct Deposit Happy Dance, LOL!! We started getting things out of here and into storage. We had to make some decisions before doing anything else to make sure the budget was up for all that needed to happen and that could possibly come up. So, we decided that we would be out of this house by the 1st so we didn't have to pay rent here and not have enough for another if we found one. (OMGolly...where are we going to go; we haven't got a house yet! Just one thought that came across my mind.) Uhh, was that the right thing to do; I don't know...but it is absolutely what we had to do. I mean our current landlords did tell us that if we moved out sooner than the end of July (oh yeah, because we are now getting an official 30 days to move letter on the 1st...ugh) that they would reimburse us that amount. So, for them...this is a good thing right? They're going to get it on the 1st! I've gotta find something good in it. So one week left to pack up and get out! We can do this!! That evening we were blessed with the presence of my youngest daughter and her fiancé. It was nice to have the company that I didn't have to entertain and could do what I needed to do.

Day 10: The daughter so kindly takes the other small sibling to the movies so we can go house hunting which I already mentioned above was a fail! Early evening we took a break from packing, etc to go to the hubby's work event called Family Fun Day at Eberly Farms. It was hot...thank God for pools! The hubby took part in the washer tournament with his partner in crime that also has a lame hand. Two men both hurt their prominent hands this week...they were out first round. :(

They had paintball targets, petting zoo, zip line, hay rides, barrel rides, playground, mini golf, unlimited popcorn, drinks and cotton candy, and most of all an amazing dinner including grilled chicken, pulled pork, potato salad, baked beans, chips, and ice cream. It made for a great evening with the family.

Day 11: All of us but the hubby and boy slept in until almost 10am. I haven't done that in a coon's age. I'm always usually up between 5-6 no matter what time I go to bed. I must have needed it. Woke up to the boys and trailer being gone with some big items missing from the living room. Wow, they loaded all that and I didn't hear a thing. My hubby is stealthy that way...ever so quite when doing anything; but how I didn't hear the kid is beyond me? Coffee was made; He loves me! After my "have to have it quiet time every morning" time...I started in on breakfast. The young adults rousted up at that time and the finance went running over to storage to see if he could help; quickly coming back as they were all done. We ate, chit chatted a bit, and the girl went through her stuff I was sending home (yes, every report card, drawing, paper, health records, pictures, every single thing I had kept for her since birth is out of here!!). Thankfully she brought his truck; she was loaded. :)

Day 12: Sent the kiddo to camp! We took another load to storage, went to get more boxes and mattress covers...and well just more packing, etc. Nothing exciting that I could post about today. I will say I'm questioning the house we'll hear about; only because it takes the kiddo away from getting to go to camp, his friends that he enjoys so much there, the respite I get from there (let's be honest here...I love respite). New schools (well he was going to have to go to a new school anyway but it would include people he already knew, and they were already prepared for him since we had the transition meeting back at the beginning of May). New neighbors, routes, business', routine, time traveling, wait, stop...I've not signed a lease yet! Breathe!

We found out today that our famous and ever so awesome pharmacist Chad was no longer with the company...Big red flag to us that it's time for us to move on. That's why we've been having so many issues with our meds lately. I found this out while on the phone to find out why they had auto filled one of K's meds with a 300 mg instead of the 100 mg like last month. Long boring story with all that so I will not bore you with such details. Two more days until we find out about Ozzy and if we'll be bringing him back home. Four more days until we're out of this house. God has a plan and we're going to continue to trust in Him.

Thank you so much for the ones who call, message, and text checking on us when I'm socially quiet. I appreciate you all so much for caring enough to follow the journey, and I absolutely cannot wait to expose the Glory of God's perfect provisions. Every time He has made a way for us in some very crazy scenarios. We knew for a while we were headed to move; but He apparently wants it to be NOW!

Blessings~
Simply LOLA

Day 7: God will move you... (take a nap)

The morning started off ever so sweetly with a lunch date request from a friend for next week. I must say, I am in need of some girl time and adult conversations outside the walls of our current situation. I'm thankful for spontaneous moments in life whether they lighten up the day or make it even more chaotic only because of the surprise endings and stories in which one can share. Now don't get me wrong, I love some introverted serenity with a boring schedule from time to time to just catch up on, well...naps!

I took a long one today...all afternoon. I know the naps are becoming a little more addictive these days because when one is depressed it's easier to cope by sleeping off a few hours than have to "feel" the stuff I don't want to. Mr. K didn't get to go to camp today because the gas that was needed for the doctor visit took away from him attending today and tomorrow. All of it has been quite depressing though I know we're going to be alright; it's not where I want to be in life. It sucks actually that so many have had to say "sorry" this last week over several things that have happened. I really would much rather celebrate life, but wouldn't we all?

I find it quite ironic that we actually live in the town of Valley Center, and I've been emotionally, spiritually, financially, and physically in the valley of life since we've moved here. I had expectations of a new place and all the excitement of it; that didn't last long. I don't know that I want to stay and see if there's a future of conquering here. I'm worn. I will admit though I know without a shadow of a doubt much has happened since we moved here for the glory of God to be revealed for our kiddo. He has had so much success through the services, therapies, doctor visits, surgeries, camp, etc...so it's been worth it. Now that he is done with most of that and only needs check ups it's time to move on I guess. It'll be interesting to see how this all plays out by day 30. 

Some good news in the midst of the chaos is, the boy had a follow up appointment for the removal of his ear tubes and graph. We got the all clear this morning which is a nice tune to add to the beating of out of sync drums right now. We sent off an application for place #1 and the fee today, so we'll see what happens with that.

Day 4: God will move you...

Today was so much better. Woke up to wonderful words...Thank you all so much for the prayers, texts, emails, pm's...of prayer, encouragement, and acknowledging that the post I do here are touching lives.

Guess what??? The email came through this morning with the application for the home I spoke of yesterday. While this home is in need of some help...we have a stirring within us that it's ours. We've discussed all we will/could do. We just might be homeowners again (it's been 9 years since we owned our home) if it all goes through. We let them know today we were interested and would be sending the app & app fee as soon as they let us know where to send it; so we're now awaiting that info.

I have so much more to disclose but that'll all come at the end of this 30 day journey because it could end several ways. I can't disclose everything right now because there's things that could get turned really upside down...so be patient; and enjoy this journey with me.

We did go look at another home today; it's a NO! We've put more on the list to look at just in case. I've asked in my prayer time that if the place we're applying first isn't the place best for us to give Him glory then please shut the door, so I ask the same from you.

Other than that; I packed up some glass vases that I have and dug out all the totes from the garage. I decided I wasn't leaving here with totes full of misc pictures, papers, etc without any organization to them. My living room looks like a tornado has whipped every direction with stacks of stuff here and there, boxes all over, totes of every color, and our son's toys. :) Nobody come over...I'm not letting you in. ;) I decided I would split up all the pictures of my ex and myself; like wedding pics, high school pics, pics of the girls growing up, and put them in separate totes just for the girls. I completed that today with many laughs, smiles and for some odd reason my eyes kept leaking. I've got to go get that checked out.

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My mom & girls

The memories were rushing in like a tidal wave and I'd run with it then crash back to land again. It was a beautiful thing...my girls bring me much joy! There were pics of the grandparents whom have passed, grade cards,  afghans made by their great grandmother, all the pictures they drew and projects...no need for me to hold on to them anymore since they are now adults. I want them to have the opportunity to enjoy them, throw away whatever they want so that when it comes time that I go home; they don't have to separate, fight, etc over such. 

Now they've been notified their memory totes are ready, and bring a truck!!

She's happiest when her sister is the maddest! JK

Today was exhilarating to say the very least. Father's Day...ohhh do I have the thoughts on that. I don't know that tonight is a time for me to effectively share, so just know that there will be a day on that subject. I got to enjoy a father though today that brings me so much joy...he's my husband. He is the father of our son and stepdad to our girls. He is amazing, and I'm so thankful for him. I've never seen a man be so passionate about taking care of his family and sincerely loving on his wife as my husband is. He finds a way to complete us, he gives up some of his most prized possessions to feed us, and honestly he gives up so much so easily. I pray that one day this man will see all that he is, all of the value he contains within himself, all the world that he deserves...because he's worth it!

Just before he left for work tonight, I asked a tough question...what if? I personally don't like that statement and have told our son several, hundreds, uhmmm a million times don't "what if".  Good grief, we'd never get to the end of the conversation seriously. The question I asked came because in reality our financial situation which I disclosed in Day 1; "What if we get denied any place to rent, what's the plan?" This is a real possibility, not because we've been late on rent or anything to do with that; it's all the other stuff like voluntarily giving back the car, etc. He so calmly said, as much as he hated it...we'd put our stuff in storage and stay in a hotel until we found something.

As you read this...this isn't for pity; I promise. This is the raw situation in which we face. When I launched Simply LOLA officially, it was after I felt deep within my spirit; God calling me to be verbally naked though guiding and covering me with His tender grace, mercy and favor. So I don't believe if there's a topic I feel led to write that I can leave the touchy, embarrassing, authentic, humbling, sometimes almost shameful feelings out because there's somebody somewhere going to read these posts at their perfect time. We are okay with what happens regardless what that looks like because God has always had a powerful story behind it every single time. We will not die though it will sometimes feel as though we want to. Wouldn't it be amazing to be this financially distraught and end up being homeowners? That's what this 30 day journey is about...me showing how God provides every. single. time.


~Blessings!
Simply LOLA

Day 3: God will move you

Today was more productive...I got the books all packed, pictures all off the walls, tv console cleaned out and movies packed, one room went through and packed, a couple loads of laundry and dishes done. We went and viewed a home this evening, it is up for sale/rent with a nice option to buy. They said they would send us the contract to review. After immediate replies all day setting up the appointment to view; we haven't heard from them regarding the contract.

When it isn't for us; the door seems to slam shut...for this I'm thankful. I don't have to question anything because it's out of my control. A no is a no...maybe's can be so stressful.

The house had some repairs that would need to be made in our opinion and that kind of excited me honestly to get to work on a home; paint, repair, remodel how we want it. The basement had 3 additional bedrooms and a bathroom...it had all been stripped down to the framework...which would be awesome to start fixing up. Rick's love was also part of the deal; a 2 car garage/shop that was big, a lake practically in the backyard, and a separate area outside for the dogs.

So...tonight we will go to bed a little disappointed as it had everything we pretty much wanted minus acreage. There's always tomorrow, and who knows maybe something happened and they couldn't get it to us tonight. There's still tomorrow and sometimes time changes things.

Also, if you would say a prayer for this lady as her young adult son just passed away within the year...how sad!

Thank you for reading and being apart of our current journey. Happy Father's Day tomorrow to all you wonderful dad's out there and single mom's trying to fulfill a tough spot. Hugs!

~Simply LOLA

Day 2: God will move you

Sorry I didn't get this posted yesterday, but it was just a numb4. day.

Though I was disconnected, God wasn't. His provisions were this:

1. A man whom owed the hubby some money; paid up.

2. We got some boxes

3. We called on a house to look at and the management was supposed to call us back to give us the code to enter for a viewing at 4pm today (Saturday)...so far, no call back. Closed door for now.

4. Got one room almost done; at least all the stuff we didn't want to keep is gone. I'm blessed to have a man working in the waste industry. :)

Hoping for a better day and awesome post later today.

Blessings and thanks for the follow of this story.

~Simply LOLA

Day 1: If you don't move...God will move you.

Morning was going as normal...and the phone rings. I answer because I see it's the landlord. Conversation goes like this...

LL: Hi, how are you?

Me: Good, how are you?

LL: You got a minute to talk, we need to discuss something.

Me: Ok, yeah...(assuming that since I've known their house has been on the market for at least 2 months, it was to let me know their new address to mail the rent)

LL: We are giving you 30 days to move out. We sold our house and are going to be moving into your house.

Me: (thought: What?!?) Ok.

LL: It might be able to be stretched out to 45 days depending on the closing date, but we'll let you know. We have a property in Wichita (explains where it is) that is a bigger house, smaller yard for $1000 a month; (we pay $850 and struggle that) Would you like to see it? (thinking to self....still back on first statement; what?!? Is this really happening...ohh my, I've got APD, LOL!)

Me: I don't know, I'll have to talk to the hubby first

LL: I know this isn't news you wanted to hear.

Me: I'll let you know what the hubby says (because I can't even think at this point to talk about anything else)

Hang up.


WTH? God what are you doing? Yes, we've been processing moving...but uhm! We aren't in a lease, we ran out that and have been on month to month for 2 years now, so we really can't do anything.

Ok first off...when you have a special needs kid you don't just pick up and move without much research and questions. The conversation that must happen with the child for preparation and smooth transition. Ugh transition of one thing can be a huge deal; but this, might be more than one thing transitioning. The school district if we can't stay in this one, are we prepared to homeschool if it doesn't meet requirements? The emotional well being of the child, (I'll just say right here the landlord is in special education), the services offered in another county if we can't stay in this one. Wait, we need a deposit for the next house, we need to figure out traveling expenses for work if it's further than what we have now, the dogs...will we have to give them up? Uhm, is the hubby to find a different job altogether because this isn't where we're suppose to be, all these thoughts/questions/feelings!

I'm mad, I'm hopeful, I'm sad, I'm glad, I'm confused, I'm lost....rollercoaster, Let me off!!

Sure I want to be able to tell you ohhh I'm at peace because I know God has a plan (I do know this in my head), He's always provided a way before, He's always had the plan already set, blah, blah, blah. Well, to be honest, I'm a bit of a mess right now. A real mess actually...I don't know where we're going to live in 30 days, my future just got disrupted and it's out of my control. There is nothing I can do about it. I'm hurt that they didn't just move into the other house they offered us since it's just temporarily their home until what...a new house is built. Ugh! I'm mad that they didn't tell us a thing until now when they've had the house on the market for at least 2 months....ok, maybe they didn't know it would sell so quick or whatever. I'm thinking out loud here.

Here's the raw and real kicker for us...Hubby just lost all his OT (overtime this last month); that's money we depended on to live paycheck to paycheck. The reason I'm bringing up money...is this; I know there's more than want to admit they struggle in this area whether it's priorities are not in line, health/medical expenses deplete it, living outside their budget, etc....all those things have been played out before in my personal life. My husband busts his rear to provide for this family and he does a fantastic job, but we choose to live the simple life. We don't have credit cards or live on credit, we literally use all of our funds to have a home, food, and the necessities of life. We literally trust God for the rest. He delivers every single time and shocks us a lot of the time. We're so thankful for His provisions. It's just in a mess right now. So...we don't have a deposit for another home at this moment. So if you look at your current circumstance; like I'm doing right now...panic attack headquarters!! In this moment, we're going to be homeless.

I write this only because I know there will be another miracle story to tell at the end of this 30 days. Wait and see! God showed us that when we moved here 3 years ago...He'll do it again. Last time, it was a job offer the hubby couldn't refuse and we moved within 30 days to a whole other town 3 hrs away. Now it's a out of our control type scenario. Here goes the watch and see...I'm going to write the current struggle and provisions down everyday and share them with the world to prove God is faithful every time.

I'm just a simple girl trying to live out this life the best I can. Praying this brings hope to someone else. For this is the reason I live; to help another!

(for those who know the past story...East is still so ever strong; as much as to say, we didn't follow through with the original plan...so here's our chance to get it right. I'm turning back to Gideon again as well.)

This one...lately I've had a multitude of breakthroughs in different areas; New Season here we come!!

 ~
Simply Lola
(forgive the grammar, etc. I'm not even in the mood to check it)