Saturday, November 12, 2011

A new tumor (brain glioma)...

and growth of the plexiform neurofibroma sends us down a new journey of chemo. Koda's update. Please sign his guestbook.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Ohh Pitiful me...

is what I use to say as I have looked homelessness in the face, I have been in a place of my life when I didn't have a bed, I have known a lot of people and never had a "friend", I have been in the pits of darkness, loss, and despair. I have been by the bedside of my loved ones whom took their last breath, I have been forced to do things I would have never chose on my own, I had to grow up fatherless, I have children with medical/health/development/behavioral issues, I have lost my mother at a young age, I have been through a divorce, I have done and seen way more than I would ever ask anyone to even image. But because of these things; I can say "I understand" when there is another one in that place, I can comfort with words of experience, I can encourage when there is no hope, I can just listen when they need to tell someone, I can embrace when they need to cry. There's healing in relationships of being known. I've healed because God has so gracely placed such people in my life. For this I am so eternally grateful.



...for the little things, but some of the most important things; a roof, a bed, blankets, and the things money can't buy; like true friendship when you need a bed...they bring you one. I've got to experience that a lot lately. More than I want really but am so thankful. Through people being the hands and feet of Jesus I have a desire to know Him better. It's because of Him that we have anything good. I have gifted, energetic, creative, and amazing children, I have a simple home with all the love in the world, I have Jesus in my heart, and I have a husband who loves me, provides to the uttermost, and just plain likes me. I have a Heavenly Father, I'm no longer in a pit of despair, I have a mother awaiting me in Heaven, I chose to do things now that make a difference in the world, I see things in a different view, I walk hand to heart with people into the unimaginable, I help deliver backpacks of food for children in need, I have a lot of friends, I can sit and be quiet when I really want to shout, I can help comfort the dying to a place they really want to go, I see the light daily, and I'm thankful that He has made it so clear through the windows of our eyes if we'll just open them and take off the glasses of lies. We are without excuse the Bible tells us...

"For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse."
Romans 1:19-21
 
Thankful...for my vision, health, limbs, ability to move, speak, hear, and most of all live in the freedom to express my love for Jesus; and all He has done for me! Are you thankful?