Want a solution?

What is the biggest solution you are looking for? Are you needing a solution for your finances, relationships, weight, attitude or a career? Ohhh, do I understand...each one of those.

This little picture popped up one day...and I had to really process it because I knew it was just for me. Same problems that keeps occurring...what's yours? My current one is probably money; though I have went through a couple years of being what I considered "free" from the burden of money concerns. I'm back to begging for a solution. Well, I asked myself; what was it that I'm now doing again as years past that was different than when I was "free"? I first had to go through the grieving process of all this...I couldn't be to blame, it was the economy, our move, our son's diagnosis, the medical bills, the loss of my job, yada, yada, yada. Excuses! No one wants to be the blame.

The growl of my heart spoke to my head...giving. I'm not giving like I use to. I'm not feeding the homeless, I'm not giving of my time, I'm not involved in caring for my relationships, but instead slipping selfishly back into "self". Oh and that is such a dangerous place for me; self leads to more self until I don't care about anything or anyone...bam, Depression is set in.

I know relationships can be a big one in many people's lives. We can't go through the day without needing or facing all of these possibilities...so what is the solution? The ending of this picture says...the solution lies with you.

Ouch...was my first thought; blame was the first thought and self punishment...it's all my fault; playing victim almost. No, wait...if I'm in control of it then I can change it. What a power, a thought, a game plan now needs to be drawn up. Game plans cannot be successfully planned without the help of others. It takes a team, some accountability to stick to the plan, a friend to process the thoughts before acting on anything, a team approach makes it a healthy success. If you make up the plan all on your own; pride can step in stealth mode...and "i" is in the middle of pride. It's fun to bounce the thoughts of another because if you learn something from listening then what a great benefit.

So I confessed my problem...and realize I have a lot of solutions to change my circumstances; so I'm starting with volunteering at a wonderful place that services my son's diagnosis. By doing this, guess what...they offered me a paid temporary job. Now, that is some $$$ coming in that wasn't. I have more solutions to work on and will be bouncing thoughts with my accountability team along with processing a new game plan with them. Now, your turn; does any of this resonate with you? Share your solutions to problems that keep occurring so we all can learn and maybe find out another way; your gift to the world is your experience.

I want you to be known, understood and know that you are never alone; and you can do the same by commenting. Even if you can't think of anything right now...please let me know if you needed to see/hear this right now. Have a great day seeking the power within to change your circumstances into solutions for the future!

Embracing the joy of life though relationships good and bad.

~Yvonne

Confessions of Jealousy/Envy

Eww! Who wants to go there, though we all have at times? I’ve been yet again convicted to write because I am a writer, but (there’s that procrastination word and one that in my book reasons quietly under “failure”) I’ll never have what it takes or even have a listening ear that is impacted, a reader interested enough to read it, no one follows my kind of topics, I’ll never be paid to do it; so why do it? So, what brings up this discussion?

I downloaded an app recently that was suggested by the She Speaks Conference 2015 called First 5. This conference is something that I’ve longed to be a part of or at least go to; hoping to learn what it takes to be “successful” (that word is distorted in my perception of what it really looks like…different for each person I’m assured, but being paid to do it would be the ultimate favor of God). I could never go because I truly cannot afford to go in my current financial place. I have a special needs son that I couldn’t find care for him long enough to attend. All these excuses and the word never can really bring someone down. Can I ever be okay with never getting to attend? Jealousy sets in for those who get to go; and even more if it’s someone I know. :( Pitiful, I can’t celebrate with them due to my own selfishness and pride. 

By downloading this app; I decided I’d actually check out what it had to offer.

Honestly, the reason behind me seeking today’s devotion and what it had to offer was because I have felt a nudge yet again to write; and more confirmations have followed that nudge. I was seeking would God give me a yet another confirmation today through the app? Ohhh did He! Not only confirmation did I get, along came a greater conviction; I pray it brings healing.

Today’s 5 minutes with God is going to take way more than 5 minutes; it’s titled, Wanting What You Have. A lovely quote tops off the page, “Contentment is the key to experiencing success” by Wendy Pope. I almost didn’t read it because its first appearance had nothing to do with me writing. I was so wrong. It had everything to do with my not writing. It’s the very reason I get stuck and then quit. The little but loud phrases that enter my ear stating; I can’t, No one cares, No one will read it or be impacted, You can’t afford to self publish and no publisher is ever going to take you on, your grammar and language skills are not up to par, blah, blah, blah. Who wants that yelling in their ear; not me, so I quit.

After reading the devotion and digging deeper, I found myself processing the “My Moment” question…”Is there someone whose success you envy? How can you begin to celebrate them today?” Then it has a place for you to respond and keep your ideas, thoughts, answers, notes called “My Moments”. My response to that was this, I copied the verse 1 Timothy 6:6-8 (NIV); 6 But godliness with contentment is great gain. 7 For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. 8 But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.

Envy/jealously has caused me to get stuck and quit especially if others’ success topic is in the same realm of mine (writing, speaking, and women’s ministry). Is there someone, you ask? There’s too many! I know the perception is off because there’s only one me and one of them. We’re all given separate gifts, talents, callings in life to build on and share the encouragement of Christ and all He has to offer. We are to share so we too can be known and to know each other, making a way so we can acknowledge we’re not alone.

I can begin celebrating by first confessing this sin to God, then to someone else so that I may be healed. God help me. I can’t move into what you have in store for me, and now I see clearly why I’ve been stuck. Who knows, my beginnings just might be writing about the celebrations of others? Ohhh that last sentence is deep and hard but came out on paper quicker than I can process it in my head. Yikes! God is good and he has a plan for each of us; including me.

So after typing all that in; a thought…I’ve gotta call one of my accountability partners, Amy Dmyterko, Founder and Speaker of Tell It Ministries and confess. Not only confessing my conviction of the day but also letting her know that she was also one of those that I envied. Yuck! I hated to say it but I knew I had too. So I celebrate her today; you’ll not find another that will make your belly hurt with laughter pains, impact you for a lifetime, and make you jealous. A beautiful woman inside and out; and guess what she makes mistakes too just like us. She’s a woman after Christ and willing to tell it like it is. Kudo’s to you Amy; I’m so happy for where you’ve come, been, gone, but more excited about where God is taking your ministry and you personally. Hugs girl!!

As my story unfolds…May you be encouraged, impacted, or if nothing else entertained by my transparency in the trips, falls, and pit dwellings (ohh wait, and my success’) on my journey of life. I am a writer  (for that very statement I have to give credit to someone who doesn't know me but has been a part of this initial recent convictions to get back to writing due to his email in regards to stating my identity. Thanks Jeff Goins for your encouragement). 

So, with that I will be content because I have food and clothing. :)

 

Disclosure: As always I do have my own dictionary; meaning I make up words, spell them however I like and that’s ok. Forgive my errors for I am just a human no less or better than you. Be Blessed and be thankful you don't have to be one of those whom have to listen to my dictionary of words. Pray for my husband and kids!