Day 19: God will move you...(the adult monkey has lost his mind)

This particular post right here has taken me way to long to complete...and I'm not so sure it's going to get done. I'm starting from scratch because as I've tried to write for the last 24 hours...the previous draft post deleted itself twice, the font wouldn't sync up throughout, the pics wouldn't center, the links wouldn't work, the whole thing just made me slam the lid down this morning and walk away...so I'm here again trying to complete it. I'm thinking that I was trying to post two days worth of stuff into one post and I'm not supposed to do that; at least, not this one.

As if the craziness of all that has happened in the last 19 days wasn't enough...My only adult, responsible, mature monkey of the home (because I quit adulting a long time ago #adultingisoverrated) decides to come home and tell me; he changed jobs. What!?! Ok, do you all remember the financial struggle that I've been posting about? I don't think he reads these blogs after all...he just comments to support me because he's great at that. Anyway...yes, he starts a new job on Monday. Now let me clear this part up; he's staying with the same company (whew!). But here's the crazy...

It's incentive paid. Just typing those last three words made me stop push my glasses up and rub my eyes and take a very deep breath. This means that not only do we not ever get back the possibility of OT which is no longer coming in...his pay could be cut completely in half!

Listen, this man has been an excellent provider and always looking out for the best interest of our family. He has continued to the top of most pay scales out there for his profession. He makes over and beyond what he ever thought he could. He holds at a very high level the accomplishment for himself especially after the childhood he endured, the choices he made when dropping out of school, and the things told to him by the adults in his life. To many we are rich and to many more we are poor. It's all in perspective, attitude, and priorities. Again the reason I cover the financial part of our lives in these blogs (I'd rather not because it really can be embarrassing, humbling, and down right doesn't feel good) is because there's somebody reading that needs to feel known. Now with the bragging done...let me tell you about FEAR/SCARED TO DEATH "feelings" that I have. I trust him but I trust in God even more, so guess what he'll have 10 days of training and then goes out on his own as a driver then it'll be at least 14 more days before we know what that paycheck is gonna look like. Holding my breath, I'd be lying if I didn't admit this fear.

Really, right now we have to throw this into the loop of circus events??? Would you wanna kill him? Is this even ok? Yes, because if he didn't; he would've walked out of his position all together (We CANNOT have that)....and rightfully so. I won't go into the details of what's going on there at work because well it benefits no one and something I might say publicly could be taken wrong... I wouldn't want to jeopardize his employment. This company has been awesome to work for all the way around; it's just that the management that brought him in from KC is now gone. Now...here's the positive news:

He could make even more than he's making now with all the OT he was putting in. He has no idea what he will be able to obtain from the beginning...it's a wait and see. I know him, and he's going to strive to bring the "best" home. Whatever happens we'll be just fine because if God brought us to it; He'll bring us through it, over it, under it...done! Can't wait to post about this favor, grace, mercy, and down right miracle. Remember the pay could be cut in half. Until then...please pray for me, lol seriously. My thoughts can tend to run as wild as my adult monkey did with his decisions. I feel like we're bringing in the turtles to do the lion acts...it's gonna take a miracle. Who's gonna hang on with me and keep me in prayer about this for the next month?

Watch those turtles roar!

~Blessings!

Day 13...God will move you! (The best chaotic story yet)

Here we are at day 13...and we have a home! We signed the lease with the option to buy in 6 months today and will be moving to Wellington, KS this Friday.  God provided and let me tell you all about it.

First off let me tell you this house that we're leaving has meant a lot with symbols that only relate to our personal story, but one thing was our house # here was 555 which is our son's birthday #'s. The new house is 1306 which is my birthday numbers...and here we are on the 13th day. Just some cool stuff that means nothing else but are little coincidences that make us smile. We definitely know we were supposed to be here at least up until now if for nothing more than all that our son received in services, etc.

We got the official notice to vacate in the mail today stating that July's rent was still expected though on the phone last week, the landlord called to tell me if we moved out early they would gladly prorate/refund the rent that we didn't use. HA! I'm sorry, but we've planned to be out of here on July 1st from the beginning because we didn't have the funds to pay rent here, pay deposit for the new plus rent. In reality we didn't have the first month's rent even when we signed the lease today, but they are letting us move in anyway and waiting until the next pay period for that. How awesome is that!! Also please know that this new house is up for sale, so they are putting it on a pending status with the realtor for the 6 months until we confirm whether we want it or not. How nice!! God's mercy is fabulous! No showings while we rent, and no possibility of us being kicked out again. To be honest she had a cash buyer offer to buy it yesterday, but since she already told us we could sign the lease today; she refused to sell it due to our circumstances. Amazing...I don't know that I would've done that in her situation.

Taken from Facebook and want to give credit but can't find the page again, sorry!

One hour after signing the new lease...seriously I get a call from the current landlord asking if we'd like to go ahead and stay! What the hell?! Seriously?!? Yes, they're willing to move into the other property they offered us because they got a special transportation allowance to keep their kids in the district while they build their new house. I'm sorry but I've never felt boiling in my body like I did at that minute. See they offered us to move into their other rental property for $150 more a month (see that story here, its a whopper too) when they told us we had to move 13 days ago. No! We declined because we can't afford to pay that much for rent, and it would move us out of the school district so we decided to look elsewhere. God, what are you doing? Did we jump ahead too soon not trusting you? Did we do exactly what we were supposed to? I asked all these questions, and honestly I'm still asking.

The hubby had to remind me why we're not staying...they wouldn't fix what needed to be done. For example the bathroom linoleum started cracking from the 2 leaks that happened. They fixed the leak but never fixed the floor. When we needed a new toilet, they put in a new toilet right over the cracked floor. I tried to hide and protect it as much as possible with a rug, but really; why would someone allow that? It's not going to repair itself and it's sure not going to keep from getting worse. I wouldn't doubt it now that there is mold in the walls of the bathroom as they never pulled the walls back to fix the leaks, but did something from the outside where the faucet hooks in. There were leaks in the hallway from the drainage and they just wanted us to dry the carpet, never pulling it up to replace or clean it. Ugh! Ok, I remember now. Now I'll give them credit otherwise as they never bothered us.

Here's the other provisions:
1. New house comes with 5 bedrooms/2 bath (no more sharing w/ the kid), huge shop/garage (hubby gets his man cave), we backed up to a small lake (ohh heck yeah, FISHING), it has a basement (the kid no longer scared of dangerous weather), it has a reverse osmosis system (yay for everyone!), and it's $250 cheaper a month...HALLELUJAH!! Now mind you I'm not trying to make this house glamorous because it's not; it's a fixer upper but nothing we can't live in while deciding if we'll buy. We would no where close to be being homeowners if we stayed at the current location. It's a beautiful thought.

 I'm just going to laugh now at my future...it's all in His hands as it's always been!! So day 13 God has provided and it's not over yet...I'm going out the entire 30 because I believe there is more to reveal. We're embracing joy as we take these steps into our unknown future/path.

~ Blessings!

Simply LOLA

Day 4: God will move you...

Today was so much better. Woke up to wonderful words...Thank you all so much for the prayers, texts, emails, pm's...of prayer, encouragement, and acknowledging that the post I do here are touching lives.

Guess what??? The email came through this morning with the application for the home I spoke of yesterday. While this home is in need of some help...we have a stirring within us that it's ours. We've discussed all we will/could do. We just might be homeowners again (it's been 9 years since we owned our home) if it all goes through. We let them know today we were interested and would be sending the app & app fee as soon as they let us know where to send it; so we're now awaiting that info.

I have so much more to disclose but that'll all come at the end of this 30 day journey because it could end several ways. I can't disclose everything right now because there's things that could get turned really upside down...so be patient; and enjoy this journey with me.

We did go look at another home today; it's a NO! We've put more on the list to look at just in case. I've asked in my prayer time that if the place we're applying first isn't the place best for us to give Him glory then please shut the door, so I ask the same from you.

Other than that; I packed up some glass vases that I have and dug out all the totes from the garage. I decided I wasn't leaving here with totes full of misc pictures, papers, etc without any organization to them. My living room looks like a tornado has whipped every direction with stacks of stuff here and there, boxes all over, totes of every color, and our son's toys. :) Nobody come over...I'm not letting you in. ;) I decided I would split up all the pictures of my ex and myself; like wedding pics, high school pics, pics of the girls growing up, and put them in separate totes just for the girls. I completed that today with many laughs, smiles and for some odd reason my eyes kept leaking. I've got to go get that checked out.

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My mom & girls

The memories were rushing in like a tidal wave and I'd run with it then crash back to land again. It was a beautiful thing...my girls bring me much joy! There were pics of the grandparents whom have passed, grade cards,  afghans made by their great grandmother, all the pictures they drew and projects...no need for me to hold on to them anymore since they are now adults. I want them to have the opportunity to enjoy them, throw away whatever they want so that when it comes time that I go home; they don't have to separate, fight, etc over such. 

Now they've been notified their memory totes are ready, and bring a truck!!

She's happiest when her sister is the maddest! JK

Today was exhilarating to say the very least. Father's Day...ohhh do I have the thoughts on that. I don't know that tonight is a time for me to effectively share, so just know that there will be a day on that subject. I got to enjoy a father though today that brings me so much joy...he's my husband. He is the father of our son and stepdad to our girls. He is amazing, and I'm so thankful for him. I've never seen a man be so passionate about taking care of his family and sincerely loving on his wife as my husband is. He finds a way to complete us, he gives up some of his most prized possessions to feed us, and honestly he gives up so much so easily. I pray that one day this man will see all that he is, all of the value he contains within himself, all the world that he deserves...because he's worth it!

Just before he left for work tonight, I asked a tough question...what if? I personally don't like that statement and have told our son several, hundreds, uhmmm a million times don't "what if".  Good grief, we'd never get to the end of the conversation seriously. The question I asked came because in reality our financial situation which I disclosed in Day 1; "What if we get denied any place to rent, what's the plan?" This is a real possibility, not because we've been late on rent or anything to do with that; it's all the other stuff like voluntarily giving back the car, etc. He so calmly said, as much as he hated it...we'd put our stuff in storage and stay in a hotel until we found something.

As you read this...this isn't for pity; I promise. This is the raw situation in which we face. When I launched Simply LOLA officially, it was after I felt deep within my spirit; God calling me to be verbally naked though guiding and covering me with His tender grace, mercy and favor. So I don't believe if there's a topic I feel led to write that I can leave the touchy, embarrassing, authentic, humbling, sometimes almost shameful feelings out because there's somebody somewhere going to read these posts at their perfect time. We are okay with what happens regardless what that looks like because God has always had a powerful story behind it every single time. We will not die though it will sometimes feel as though we want to. Wouldn't it be amazing to be this financially distraught and end up being homeowners? That's what this 30 day journey is about...me showing how God provides every. single. time.


~Blessings!
Simply LOLA